enough

I will not be a slave to me
I will live by the creed my mind has set before me
My choice is now
The change is even closer
Mind screaming
Broken
Cracked
Splintered
For worth
For who?
I know what I am
Beyond the recesses of thought
That my mind doesn’t not comprehend
But attempts to bestow upon me
As truth.
Falsehood beat into me
Lies secured within me
Solidified as crystalline
Truth
Preaching a gospel
I myself have been unable to follow
My scripture is my own
My day of reckoning is now
I will no longer be a slave
And I will burn the master
Every truth unfounded
Every certainty, no better than chance
Regaining my world
Finding what’s real
Experience without planning
Loving without trying
Giving back what I took so long ago
All of it
Strength
Love
Thirst
Freedom
Myself
Reclaimed
Change will come with time
Change will come with experience
Change will come
Force of change in my mind
Is leading to destruction
I understand my flaws
But I will not be guided by them
And they are not mine to give
Only mine to let go.
I want to cry with joy
With passion
With love
With honesty
It has been so long
Since I have seen me
A little dusty
A little worn
Time to stop trying
And wake up.